no caffeine. no nicotine. no sleep. no motivation. no heat. lovely, just lovely!

add to the list: no study environment.

 
No sleep this night either. And no I'm not distracted in a good way. It's just lovely. Now: shower and accounting lecture.

State of Mind : Feeling awfully abandoned, terribly pathetic and realising that loneliness is so much better when you're not alone.

 

So 1000000 years later, I LOVE this song! And the album aint too bad haha. Went to watch Hangover 2, but my mind is a tad too lost so walked out and went to News Cafe instead. Need to start studying now. Busy bee works wonders...hopefully. Otherwise there's always wine.

Love this girl and is terribly upset that I'm nowhere close to the performances! Now I shall however remain in Internet-coma.

My exam timetable:
2 June. Accounting (DP 62%)
4 June. Managerial Economics (DP 55%)
6 June. Business Entities (DP 70%)
10 June. Constitutional Law (DP 50%)
11 June. Economics of Financial Markets (DP 64%)
13 June. Special Contracts A [Sale/Suretyship/National Credits Act/Estoppel] (DP 47%)
20 June. Special Contracts B [Insurance Law/Sale and Lease of Land] (DP 62%)

So today I have......
Slept 12 hours. In newly washed bedding. Love the feeling! Then took a long shower. Realised I need to sort out my hair again....two weeks later. Just love having hair that grows like weed. Then had breakfast in the shape of a cup of coffee, frosties and milk. Spoke to my dad. Packed a bag to go to varsity. Read the new ELLE. Drove to NMMU with the ambition to avoid the floods which the rainfall had created. Stopped to get some petrol. Arrived at varisty, no rain in Summerstrand... How lovely! Went to a lecture where he spoke about the principle of estoppel. Went to Prof Govindjee and got my DP for Constitution, WOHO! Sat through a lecture which was suppose to tell us what we should study for the exam....he should have said what we shouldn't study, would have saved everyone some time. Then went to Spar to get food. Then an accounting lecture, love that subject for some strange reason. Then went to the library to study managerial economics, I left to go to have coffee with Paulina. And now I've had ciabatta with cheese and tomato, and a cup of coffee and is just about to start watching Eat Pray Love.

Tomorrow we shall try out a new breakfast place in Richmond Hill. And go to an accounting lecture. And finish study managerial economics. I believe that's it.

Day 26 – Your fears

Loneliness. Not so much without people, but rather without the right kind of people. As I have a tendency of feeling more alone when I am with people than when I am alone. And to wake up one morning and not be able to find a single thing in my life which makes me smile.

Day 25 – Something you're good at

 
Procrastinate. Talk about useless things. Read. Cook. Ignore the world. Make up. Let people down. Switch off my phone. Drive too fast. Study. Make coffee. Find weird clothes and pair them together to a strange ensemble. Speak on the phone. Take photos. Avoid sensitive topics. Get into trouble. Sort papers and other things in some kind of order. Eat popcorn. See what no one else can. Speak my mind. Forgive but not forget. Not listen to my own advise. Suduko and crossword in general. Monopoly. Music and make playlists. I would love to say to live life to the fullest, but lately I have started to doubt that is what I am doing.

 

 
Today my world was about to fall apart. And I can't speak about it. Can't find the right words any longer. I'm scared. Terribly frightened. And I don't know what to anymore. I passed accounting by the way. Some miracle. It's almost time for the exams and I'm lost. Need to get away. To avoid reality. Because that's what I do best. Anyway, now I'm going to find a pair of knitted socks and finish my accounting notes, and eat my strawberry cheesecake.

Nothing new in this little piece of Africa. Went to watch Pirates of the Caribbean 4. Waste of time! Other than that I have guessed my way through a multiple choice test. Had dinner at Beach Hotel, Amaze and chilled at Zest. Have had too many glasses of wine and finally seen Twelve. Realised I'm in too deep to get out and not feel something with this guy. And I need to make a study timetable for the exams which commence the 2nd of June. Furthermore I decided to escape my own bed and went to a B&B in the middle of nowhere. I am probably going mental. Think that would summarise the end of this week.