Today? Study for Contract, Write Contract, Pass Contract. Solo. Abduction with Cass (SO HORRIBLYAWFULLYBAAAAD!!!). Kat. Balizza. And no problems are solved. Can't believe things never work out according to my schedule.

Now? Sleep! Oh precious sleep how I've missed you!

Best album to study to?!

PRIME CIRCLE - ALL OR NOTHING

LOVELOVELOVELLOOOOOOOOVVVEEEEEEEE!!!!!

So little people out there! (and no I'm not ONLY referring to the smurfs, hobbits and leprechauns!) I have now realised EXACTLY how I should study... a month before I'm almost graduating.... Well you learn new things all the time I suppose. I have just completed 15.2, only 15.3 and 15.4 left. This is possible little people, it's possible! So stretch those funny coloured (and possibly hairy) tiny legs of yours and lets kick it hardcore! 16.05 Thursday. That is approximately 16 hours and 15 minutes from now. I have faith!

Soooo new hairdo! Not that you see anything in this bunker I call home, but still! Rather awesome if I may say it myself! Now.......CONTRACT&CAFFEINE!

What's happening today?
Pay municipality bill and the accommodation in Cape Town in January. Then a hair-appointment to hopefully try to look somewhat decent in comparison to this mess I have now.. Then a date with Cass, and some more contract. Somewhere in between I shall probably drink tons of coffee and red bull as well, due to the lack of sleep.

So today I've paid bills and socialized. And now I'm drinking coffee and studying contract.. Oh the excitement of termination of obligations! Tomorrow I'm going to the hairdresser, it's going to be amazingly awesome! Apart from that, yesterday I broke my incredible sunglasses. But compensated that with passing both accounting and constitution so I suppose as always, you win some and lose some. Now I shall return to my books, aiming at 100% on Thursday. Feels like that's a great target right now..!

So now...back to business!

I'm tired of not understanding my best but always and always again have to do the same mistakes over and over and over and OVER again. Now I can't sleep because I feel too bad. I don't know who I feel bad to, I just feel reallyreally small and tiny. And yet I'm rather happy that I feel like this so I didn't go to that party, and missed Jozi and his knife because then I probably would have been even more of a wreck.. Oh yes, I missed a knife-fight last night. Think I'm gonna start thanking whatever God is out there.

 
So..things have changed....again; I might possibly have failed another module due to lack of ambition, which is rather pitiful and lets just say there was a vast lack of sleep last night....well until I realised I have pills, and boom I was asleep! Today I have spent baking and cooking, and not thinking.. And now I'm busy sorting out my CV. How it terrifies me of how amazing it looked in high school and how horrible it looks now... But anyways! I have a plan for next year as well, and a back up plan if that plan would fall through..

Now I shall continue this and read some law of contract for the test on Thursday... Ah this weekend has indeed made me feel alive to say the least..!

Sometimes, the world just comes down on you and you realise you've underestimated your opponent. But then you get this hand which helps you up. Today my opponent was Microsoft Access, and my helping hand the shopping I did yesterday which I unpacked today as well as the last box of coffee which I didn't know existed which I just found in one of my cupboards! Other than that, I'm having an amazing weekend without anything incredible happening, and it's awesome! More about that tomorrow...

Ah lovelovelove!!

My dream? Ehmmmmmm YES!! Well the wall anyway....the rest is rather awful, with a few exceptions which confirms the statement haha. Two hours until the last accounting-test ever.....

Ah I'm done cleaning! Finally I have a stocked wardrobe and shoes which are in their boxes! I have lit candles and mad myself a huge cup of honey-water, and put on Beastly haha. The only thing which is interrupting this amazing evening of mine is.....the dishwasher....kill me slowly how much noise a machine can make! Other than that I have some more accounting to go over, unless I wake up earlier than usual and finish it off then. Ah decisions, decisions!

So I'm going through an intense what-the-hell-am-I-doing-with-my-life-crisis. Thus I've opened up a few options. Such as new volunteer-spaces, alternatives to my education, internship opportunities etc. And therefore I've decided although I look like shit and then some I shall from now on be healthy! Over being sick, so I'm now well again! After a day filled with accounting (yes I only got home from uni now....love life) I shall put on a movie and clean this mess of a place. It's actually rather pathetic how one person can create such chaos without even trying.. And for the record I shall be sleeping alone, which I'm sure isn't all too difficult. Yes people, this is what can be seen as a change of attitude! Whoooop!